Hey everyone. It has been a very long time since I have posted anything on my blog. Everyday gets busier and I have had less time to spend online writing on the blog and many times completely forgot about it, but I have good news.
When I was a child I went through some traumatic things, and recently the lord has shown me that those things that i experienced, from my dysfunctional parent, were wrong. I became an angry child. Always blaming myself for the pain that was inflicted as a child that i had no control over. The lord has brought people into my life that have shared the word of the lord and showed me that in a situation you can't control , you are not responsible for the sin of others.
No one should have to experience sexual sins as a child, but it happens to many people. Some who grow up angry and project that anger on others their whole life. Those same individuals will never know why they are angry, because they will never come to terms with what it is that is causing all the pain and anger in their life, but praise the lord I have come to see a part of my past that I can now work on letting go, and that is a blessing.
I am strong, and with the lord there is nothing that I cannot handle. Don't forget to seek the lord with all of your strength. I have been reading the bible, but have been refusing the lords advances and ability to grow by holding on to my pride of being able to fix things myself. The truth is, I can't fix things myself, and without the lord and the help of his anointed I would have never found out why I have been angry for so many years. Be yourself, love yourself, and forgive yourself. The lord forgives you, and you must forgive yourself.
For those who don't know how or what to study in the bible, concentrate on the New Testament. The New Testament is the law of Jesus Christ. Follow it. In fact start in James, and reread it until you understand it. Research interpretations, and learn as much as you can. It took me a while to understand that "faith without deeds is dead." I can believe as much as I want, try to convince myself all day that my faith is enough, but without following what the word of God has laid out for me, change is impossible and so is reaching heaven.
A few things for those of you who want to progress in your relationship with the lord:
Do good that you know you should be doing (pay people back that you owe money)
Love your neighbor as yourself
Study the law so that you may live by it
Remember faith is made complete by the things you do
Stay strong in your faith, the fight will be over when our eyes close for the last time. Until then we must persevere.
Keep the faith.
