Paranoia

Earlier this past week I have thought to myself, "am I just paranoid or are there things going on behind the scenes of our government and private worlds?" I guess you could call me a conspiracy theorists, but the more knowledgeable I become about the world around me the more I realize how ignorant I have always been.

Think about this for a second, how many individuals watch TV or movies in a day? I would say that a significant amount of individuals are behind some sort of screen producing images that are created to make a blockbuster film for money. The scenes are meticulously put together in order to evoke an emotion from the audience. Whether it is two lovers meeting for the first time in a perfect setting, a couple fighting, domestic violence, teen pregnancy, intervention shows, crime shows, tournament poker, sports, news, or a bunch of college kids trying to have sex and get completely wasted they all contain some type of image that many people try to emulate subconsciously.

You may say to yourself, "yeah right....I don't do that" but in all reality, you know that you do. You are influenced by commercials on getting in shape, beauty products, axe spray, pharmacutical cures with hundreds of side effects, car commercials and so many others. It isn't in just one place either it is everywhere we go....our cars, on planes, on trains, in waiting rooms, in public bathrooms......it's everywhere.

Ask yourself this questions....Is this what life is supposed to be about? Am I supposed to be living everyday to work and buy products and merchandise that puts me in debt and takes away from time with my family?

For those who say that is what you are supposed to be doing, you are arrogant and haven't seen other areas around the world that are suffering, even within your own borders. Men and women without health care are dying everyday, children are starving inside of homes and others suffer from addiction and abuse. Where does all of this stem from? What could it be?

Could it be the endless corruption like the love of money, lustful advertisements, pornography targeting younger women, the shows about drinking and having sex, the shows about becoming a celebrity, dancing with the stars, American Idol, could it be the game shows about obese people losing weight....... We think that happiness is being sexually attractive, having nice things, lots of money, a nice house, and a perfect family with higher education and going golfing. Does anyone else see anything wrong with this picture? We are being programmed and we can't even see it. WAKE UP! I wish I could just grab everyone and shake the crap out of them until they start opening their eyes, but they never will.

Go buy your starbucks latte, hit the gym, judge others by their appearance, and date the good looking man or woman that boosts your confidence, and live a life that is filled with meaningless bullshit. Fuck it, ill choose poverty and happiness over bullshit. It isn't hard to read people, all you have to do is look at what they are all about. Separate yourself out of the bag overflowing with bad apples, and plant a seed of goodness in the few places left in the world.

The fruit in the Garden

As I sat and watched the television play I could only imagine what was really coming from it, an aroma of lies and deceit, greed and arrogance, and distrust and jealousy. It was like I was being consumed by something that looked so delightful and tasty, but I was not truly judging it by its fruit, or what some would call its core. What do you see beyond the surface? Look at what is going on behind the scenes, not what is going on in the performance.

We breed a people that think that happiness comes from being known in the world, that money can make you important, and that being alone means you are worthless. In the bible it says that jesus left his disciples to pray. When was the last time you left everything, including all electronics, people, and thoughts to spend one moment with god? Probably a very long time, and the reason is because of our selfishness. It is our destruction, our control, and the poison that drains the love of Christ out of us. Our spiritual strength begins to weaken and diminish, withered and waiting to be thrown in the fire.  

Mirrors won’t be present in heaven where we focus on ourselves. All mirrors should be broken and thrown in the fire because this life is not about self, but about selflessness. Our mind is focused solely on ourselves every day, whether we want it to be or not.

Everything needs to be taken out of your life that is not a product of love and that includes television, mirrors, computers, internet, and possibly as far as to say even cell phones. We are losing track of what is important and that is our complete focus and concentration on the person we are standing next to. These are the most important meetings of our life, because when this life is over and our time comes to be judged we will remember that moment with the person and we said nothing of what we knew.

Look at the times magazine sometimes and notice how all the cover pages the M, is placed above leaders to show you images of the devil. He raises his hands and smiles, the smoke screen has been  tactically employed to make you think that he is the good guy, but the darkness grips his soul for that position of power, where the world knows your name.

In the bible it also says the exalted will be humbled and the humbled will be exalted. What if this life was our one chance, an ulterior dimension where our purpose here was to test our ability to endure mocking and being alone as Christ did before he was on the cross. We all must live similar lives to Christ in the sense of how he treated individuals and did not care of what men and women thought of him but shared what he knew was the truth.

People can’t handle the truth because they are so blind that no matter how hard they try to focus and grasp what you are saying, they will remain blinded by their arrogance and pass off your words of wisdom as though they were trash to be thrown in the waste bin. Knowledge is worth its weight in gold, and for good reason. If knowledge is completely grasped and an individual can choose to be humble for just a few moments and LISTEN to another person then themselves, they will experience a freedom from the chains of self doubt, self-esteem, depression, anxiety, and anger like they could never imagine. Their happiness would not be for material objects, beauty, or perfection, but the simplicity of being given the opportunity to breath, to feel, and to love.

The lord is like a tow truck

THE LORD IS LIKE A TOW TRUCK

Have you ever considered that the lord is similar to a tow truck? I mean when you look at this picture you obviously see the cross on the back, but what does a tow truck really do? When you are in the worst possible neighborhood, sitting on the side of the freeway, or scorching in the middle of a hot summer day because your mode of transportation is broken, the tow truck is only a quick call away. Sometimes they will take a while to get there and help you in your dilemma, other times you have to wait. Eventually though the tow truck will get you to where you need to go. 

What about when we do things to ourselves? Like lock our keys in our car for example? AAA comes down with the slim jim to come unlock the door through the window and opens the car for us. 

The lord is similar. When we need him all we have to do is pray and ask for his help. Many times his help won't be immediately and we will have to wait, other times it will be as soon as we ask for it. No matter what the timing is though, the lord still shows up and delivers to us what we need most. Although many times it won't be what we ask for, it will be what we need. 

The lord is also similar to a tow truck when we do things because of our own stupidity. He comes and fixes our mess and allows us to eventually get to where we need to go. 

So what is the point? The point is that no matter what our situation, the lord is always waiting patiently for us to call on him. Although he would prefer for us to talk to him all of the time, he will still be waiting for us to call on him when we are in trouble and most things we can't do alone.

All I see is a war.

I haven't written in a while. I don't know if it is because I have been extremely busy or just because everytime I get behind this keyboard my mind goes blank. Sometimes I have something that I really want to say, but then I forget it or it just doesn't seem important anymore when no one hears and you are the only person to know.

If you knew me when I was in the Marine Corps after my deployment you would know that I couldn't wait to get out, but for some reason I have this longing to be back in a war zone. Over in the war you have a completely different view of life. While I was in Iraq the handful of important things were your brothers in arms, killing the enemy, and hoping you make it back alive, but when you get home you start to wonder if this life is something to celebrate.

I have seen many things in my time as a child and as a Marine, but as a student in college I can't help but wonder why we are so happy with meaningless lives. I walk through grocery stores and see endless boxes of food items to choose from, all with different names and different colors, but even with so many things available I still feel like I am missing something.

The more I talk to people in this country the more I realize why other countries don't like americans and the more I don't ever want to leave my house. We spend more time trying to be the next american idol, jersey shore fist pumper, singer, dancer, racer, and athlete then we do making a difference in this world. It is sad to look around and see such a wealthy nation of citizens allowing individuals to starve and die on our streets. Capitalism breeds greedy individuals who push to keep the seperation of class citizens so that the upper half can live like a kings, even though the high class individuals make up 1 percent of the population. The middle class make up 19 percent of the population, and poverty consists of 80 percent.

Is this the point to our life? Is it so important to indulge in hollow substances? Our life can't possibly be about working everyday in a government that allows pornography to corrupt individuals and families, that takes away employer health care, that brainwashes children to grow up wanting to be some pop star, and attacks a country and discriminates their beliefs over oil pipelines.

All the while we are all blind to the truth.....it sickens me how many people are so ignorant. Americans live their lives going to the gym to look like supermodels in advertisements, eat food that gives them serious health problems, and we work everyday stressing the whole time about money while our economy slips through the cracks. Does anyone open a book anymore or do we just not have time because we fill our lives with empty happiness like disneyland, movies, fights, races, sporting events, parties, raves, drinking, and several other things?

I tried calling into a news stations the other day to see if they were going to play the story about how a SWAT team in Tucson Arizona killed a combat veteran in front of his 4 year old son. Come to find out they wouldn't even consider playing the story here in Kansas City because it happened in Arizona. I tried radio shows and newspapers, but no one delivers the real news. All the news we are given is carefully reviewed and placed on television for ignorant individuals to be brainwashed into believing whatever they want. For those of you who think the televison is just an entertaining box, here is an example to help you understand the concept of an individuals envirnonment affects them. Imagine yourself sitting in a sauna and the person on the outside cranks it all the way up. Suddenly you start sweating, breathing heavy, and your body become dehydrated and exhausted. This example just goes to show that your environment can and will affect your body as well as your mind.